I’m the worstย 

At keeping this updated ๐Ÿ˜ my apologies! Hope you guys are all doing great!

It’s that time of year again where I start to feel a little like an outcast, like I’m sure many other Jews feel at this time. Marnie got asked the other day if she was ready for Christmas and being good for Santa. I don’t usually say anything because I don’t want them to think I’m rude or don’t appreciate their gesture. Also because my kids do a pretty good job of saying it themselves. At first Marnie nodded but then she inched up close to me and said “we don’t celebrate Christmas, right mom? We have Hannukah!” I told her she was correct and gave her a little high five. She responded with “I love Hanukkah!” All just loud enough for the cashier to hear ๐Ÿ˜Š 

I’m sure there will be many more instances of that to come, I was just hoping it would wait until at least after thanksgiving. 

I hope I don’t sound like a scrouge, but it just gets old. Being basically the only Jew I know* gets hard around holidays because except for my husband and kids, I don’t have anyone else celebrating or giving me Jewish well wishes. Even before I converted I always made a point to make my holiday greetings generic to cover all bases, and I really appreciate when others do to. However, if you wish me a Merry Chirstmas, I will graciously accept that too. 

* I can now officially say I have made some strides in the Jewish friends department! I am friends with my Rabbi and his amazing wife and I even color her hair ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿฝ I think my favorite part is that I get to schedule time to hang with a hommie Jew every few weeks! 

I was also asked to take part in Temple’s Leadership committee. We have had a few meetings and LOOOOOVE being a part of it. I hope I get many more opportunities like this. Any excuse to go to temple is the best, I always feel so great there. I’ve also gotten to be more social with a lot of other Temple members which is amazing! 

On another note, I am feeling super guilty about having to skip on my dues basically this whole year almost so far ๐Ÿ˜ฅ we don’t have any room in the budget for anything and it’s making me feel so guilty. I hope whoever is in charge of the dues doesn’t think I’m a deadbeat congregant. I plan on paying what I owe when I can. It just won’t be for a while ๐Ÿ˜ฃ I hope they understand. That’s one difference between a church and synagogue that’s hard for me. I do understand why they do it this way and why they need it like that, but for a young family (and I’m sure many other members) it can be really difficult and becomes a source of anxiety.

And if you actually made it this far, thanks for reading all that! ๐Ÿ˜œ let me know how things are going for you in the comments!!