First off, Happy Passover friends! I attended my first legit Seder at Temple this evening, and it was great! Much better than the thrown together mess I put together for my little family last night, but hey, you have to start somewhere!
Pregnancy cravings and not being able to have chametz or kitniyot is proving difficult and it’s only day 2 😁
I have LESS THAN A MONTH left now until I am officially a Jew!! I’m so excited!!
However, I am stressing about the essay I have to write and talk about in front of the Bit Din and even more stressed about trying to not butcher the prayers I will be reciting at the mikvah. I still am terrible at pronouncing most things so this should be terribly awkward. I also never leave the house without makeup on, shallow yes, but it makes me anxious. I also get to take my 2 & 3 year old into the mikvah to convert them. I can’t really see that going to well, especially since Thad is very anti baths. I also have a very irrational fear my water will break in the mikvah or something like that will happen. Crazy I know, but my anxiety is getting the best of me these days.
At least I know at the end of the day, everything will be ok and I will officially be Jewish. I feel like I’ve been waiting my whole life to finally say I’m a member of the tribe.